what a week

well the past week has been crazy! let me tell ya......

THE WEDDING......

my family is crazy. i love them to feath but they are insane!!! sometimes i think man if only and then they auprise you and i think i wouldent have it any other way... okay let me add to all this.

My cusion Amanda got married about a week ago. it was a beautilful wedding. My family LOVES weddings because most of the time there is a open bar. and they are hugeO drinkers. (which is where i am like man i wish and then they suprise me) when i was little i was scared of them when they drank because i dident know what else to do. but now its just flat out funny and i encourage there crazy storys they tell and all the crazy things they do. i got to see alot of people i dont see much, my cusion jack (who was the drunkest one there). hes AMAZING and i never see him. i got to dance with him. it was fun. Also my uncle Fred, i love him the most (out of all the aunts and him). hes a sweet guy and we have always had a specil bond. he tought me some new dance moves (they are kinda wired) and before we was drunk (well reallu drunk) he tought me an older dance. i dont know what it was called or how to explain it without shoulding you but its sweet. ALSO that weekend i got to hang out with my brother will and his yes i am going to say it GIRL FRIEND!! (there will be pictures at the end) i got to whach her meet the family and got to see will happy. i got to get to know Alyssa alot better. i like how she makes will nice to me and him happy. OH and i sat at what we called the sover/DD- designated drive- table. i got to talk to my cousion dan and his wife. they are sweet i will show you pics at the end.....

i left early with my brother and alyssa. i had the house to my self (and will) for a week it was ever SO nice.

this weekend i babysat three days stright. it was hard b/c it was all day but it payed off.....

i also relized something over this past week. it was hard to be with the whole family sence my GG isant here anymore, but it was good too. i relized that no matter how much they frustrate me with all the drinking or how scared i was when i was little, that i wouldent have them any differant than they are. it just wouldent be the shelly family without it all. and no matter how hard it is to get together with the family and not having my great grandma (aka GG) there we will always be family and always be there for eachother.---So my wisdom for this post is...... never stop getting together with your family no mater the condition, because eventualy you will drift away and regret it....

PICTURE TIME!!

this is dan odly enough he is compleatly sobber. hes sweet!


this is terrie and dan, they are sweet to just sit and talk to

yup my dancing family

my GG. this was taken about 3 months before she died

lastly the girlfriend. i dident take this will did....

SUPRISE!!!

So my best friend is going to europ for a whole month!! when i found out i was so excited for her but then i relized that i was jessie less for a month. so she left 2 day before school got out. i was sad because i dident really get to hang out with her before she left(i had exams). but i dicided that it wont be too long and i get a present!!!

so yesterday i went shopping and got this random phone call while i was at the mall. it was from jessies house. i listened to the mesage and it was jessie. i was so confused becasuse she wasnt suposted to be in the contry. i called her back and she said that there was somthing wrong with her pass por. so they were going to drive to chi-town the next day. so i got the bigest suprise ever! i was SO happy because i dident really get to say good-bye. but we hung out all night and then she left for chi-town the next day.

it was good. i will blog later on how i havent had power for 2 day! and more too.....

** when your having a touff time god knows just what to do!**

Summer?

latly i have been spending ALL my time with school work. (mostly math) and i am finding myself stressed out about it all. for instance. i am failing a class that i am retaking and as of right now i have to pass the exam (very hard exam) to pass the class. whelp who knows what will happend. i am puting alot of faith in god to help me out. this time of yea just frightens me and stresses me out. i dont know it just feels like things arnt going too well right now. just waiting for school to be over. it was a hard year. i basicly spend all my time doing school work right now and i am just ready to have a some what stress free summer.

my summer should be interesting. my friends are all leaveing me for the first part of the summer. im kinda a lonner this summer. but i am going to make the most of it and spend alot of time hanging with middle school girls and looking for a job and babysiting 3 times a week. who knows i may find some good in my summer. might work out for me, just as its some what stress free!
<--- leap of faith(knowing gods there)
- words from ME: try your hardest to put as much faith into god as posible. its somthing we all struggle with but i know we can do it. when you think you have no one with you, remeber you have god! hes always there for you, no matter how big of a rut your in.

people frustrate me

now as you have seen i have made my desicion. which i s good. and i am ok with that decition. have to be i already told the camp. but when people ask me or i go to tell them(certain people) there not as suppoted of my decition as i would like them to be. i have had people tell me "oh" then just stop talking. i have had people be like what ever its your decition. and then go and try to be supported. and then i have the people who have always been behind me in what ever i chose. i am thankful for those people because the other people just are making me mad! it was a hard enough decition for me to make in the first place, and it dosent make it any eassyer for me to go off and tell someone and them be upset with my decition even thow it dosent effect them. i just dont know what people think. i guess i am ok with my decition but its hard when i know what people are thinking and arnt fully with me on it. i dont know about you but it is frustrating.

i do have to say again how much i love the people who i know there opinon on it but still dont give me an ancwer when i tell them that makes me mad. it really helps being in this situation. thanks a million!

All i think is everything happends for a reason. and that makes it a bit eassyer. god works in wired ways and i love it! (most of the time) = ]

Final Decision

ok decision making is done.

i made my decision with lots and LOTS of help from my good good friend mere! couldent of dont it with out her.

i have decided to not go on work crew this summer. i will go next summer but not this summer. i know people are probaly thinking "why would you go to a wedding over work crew". well let me tell ya, she is like my sister and i dont want to miss it. also i prayed and read my bible and talk to people. and in the end mere told me that i know that i am leaning more towards one way and i just need to go with that no matter what other say. so i did. and i really do feel like i wouldent of made this decition if god dident want me to go to the wedding. Also he made me make this decision for a reason. it helped me relie more on god and myself rather than other people. so in th end i feel like this is where god wants me to be, and thats where i am.

if you want to know more than what i have said just call me up and talk to me.....

Psalms 20:7
Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.

desiontions & Psalm 6

well i dont know what i said in my last blog but if i didnt tell you that james was going to try and find a camp that dosnt interfer with katies weding. well he looked and couldent find any openings for me. so that means i am faced with the decition again. which is alright i guess. i had a feeling that this would happen, but io was just hopeing it it wouldent. so i am giving my self till monday to make a desition and i shall let you all know what a come to. wish me luck and i am always open to advice!!

so i just got done reading Psalm 6 and it made me think. i love to read psalms because they are Davids prayers to god. but as i read through this verce it made me relize that even when you are mad at god or dont understand what his plan for you is, its ok to question him. now if you go and read psalms 6 you may take it differantly but thats what i found.

Psalms 6.....

what a week

so just for an update i havent made a decition about this summer. i am going to go insane! i am about ready to say i am not going to either of them and just get a full time job this summer! i just dont know what to do! On top of all that i poped another rib out of place. and sence i only have a week left of polo i am just going to keep it like that and play until season is over. what ever.....

on a light note i got a new car. my dad got a new car and my older brother had a nice car already and my mom dident want a car so he gave me his old car. its a green pontiac bonivil(sp?). its ok. i miss my old car but i will get over it. i named it lilyan bonnie. its old name was bonnie and my dad liked that name so i had to keep it. i know they dont go together but what ever.

some verces i have been focusing on:

May the LORD answer you when you are in distress- Psalms 20:1

now this next one i understand but dont see how its working for me...

May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed.- Psalms 20:4