Huge Opportunity

well its been a great week. always is so much fun till the last day..... i shall go more in depth later.....

so i have this amazing opportunity... i have the chance (again) to go with the wyld life girls to camp. i went last year and it was a really good chance for me to grow with god and get to know the girls before i started wyld life.... but this year i would bee looking to grow with god and be with the girls an see how they are feeling about entering high school. and i want to be there for them at camp so they know that if they have any questions at school they are free to come up to me and ask. i know that my first day of high school i was terrified and my 8th grade Jr. leaders all came up to me and gave me a hug and made sure that i was doing ok. i just want them to feel the same way.

so i have this sweet opportunity but i talked to my mom and she told me that i should probably talk to my aunt because i babysit for her kids every week and last week i didn't really babysit because janae was in town. my mom was like well thats alot of money your missing out on and you have to get to CO in to weeks. so i just am not quite sure what to do. suggestions??

** God has a plan for everything you do and say. for every little things that happens theres a reason why.... i have learned not to stress my self out trying to figure out why it happend.... i am starting to trust god alot more than i used to. everything he dose is good even if you dont see it at first....

my life is always better when my best friend is with me.... for those few days i am on the happyest place in the world.... then she leave....

janae is in town and i have maybe gotten 20 hours of sleep this whole week. maybe. she went to TWL this weekend and to her grnadmas house. she comes back monday and leaves tusday afternoon. i love that girland somtimes i just dont know how i function with her being gone all the time....

i shall put up pics later.....

NEWS!!!

Got a phone call from a friend and well she is on work crew and saw a clip at one of the clubs... and well she said that she finlay knew why she was there, and that just touched my heart....

she kept telling me "i cant explain how i feel i just know why i am here now" and i told he i know how you feel. thats when i told her that thats how i felt when i made my decision this summer go to the wedding and not work crew. i just couldent explain it. and i am still struggleing with the decision i made. i am still wondering if i should of gone to work crew. everyone said to go but i went the other way. i know that the decision i made was for a reason. but its hard to sit back and just listen to everyone say how sweet there experiance was without me regretting my decision. but today i came across this verce. (it was on one of my good friends facebook in the quotes section) its So do not fear, for I am with you- Isaiah 41:10 - this just helps me when i think of the decision i made. i just hope its the right one, sence i cant go back now.....

Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you
= D

Beaners & Friendships

So latly i have been spending alot of time with a sweet girl named natalee. we shar this obsession of beaners coffee. mason just resently put one in and i am going to go bankrupted! but i love it SO much. but this time that i have has been more of me getting to know natalee. we have known each other but not really know each other. i have been prety close with her sister katie. and i have become close with natalee.

we are both on the water polo team. its me natalee and our friend chloe who basicly hate everyone else on the team. yup i know very functinal. but anyways thats when i started to become close to her. This summer we have a whole list of things to do together. they constist of....

1. go to beaners (we have checked this one many times)

2. go putt-putting

3. A movie

4. go to D.Q.

So far we have done well beaners. but we tend to get it at like 7:00 at night. then were up till like 4:00. crazy. well last night we went to beaners then back to her house to make Rice Krispy Treats for katie. (they were for her birthday even thow it was a month ago) then proceeded to stay up a long time. i dident leave till 1:00.

it was fun. i love hanging out with her. it makes me happy to just be able to talk to her. its a good start to a good friendship......

**Keep those who are close to you as long as you can. its the best way to keep good friends ; )

Ps.... in case you were wondering i am one of those people who refuses to call it BIGGBY

what a week

well the past week has been crazy! let me tell ya......

THE WEDDING......

my family is crazy. i love them to feath but they are insane!!! sometimes i think man if only and then they auprise you and i think i wouldent have it any other way... okay let me add to all this.

My cusion Amanda got married about a week ago. it was a beautilful wedding. My family LOVES weddings because most of the time there is a open bar. and they are hugeO drinkers. (which is where i am like man i wish and then they suprise me) when i was little i was scared of them when they drank because i dident know what else to do. but now its just flat out funny and i encourage there crazy storys they tell and all the crazy things they do. i got to see alot of people i dont see much, my cusion jack (who was the drunkest one there). hes AMAZING and i never see him. i got to dance with him. it was fun. Also my uncle Fred, i love him the most (out of all the aunts and him). hes a sweet guy and we have always had a specil bond. he tought me some new dance moves (they are kinda wired) and before we was drunk (well reallu drunk) he tought me an older dance. i dont know what it was called or how to explain it without shoulding you but its sweet. ALSO that weekend i got to hang out with my brother will and his yes i am going to say it GIRL FRIEND!! (there will be pictures at the end) i got to whach her meet the family and got to see will happy. i got to get to know Alyssa alot better. i like how she makes will nice to me and him happy. OH and i sat at what we called the sover/DD- designated drive- table. i got to talk to my cousion dan and his wife. they are sweet i will show you pics at the end.....

i left early with my brother and alyssa. i had the house to my self (and will) for a week it was ever SO nice.

this weekend i babysat three days stright. it was hard b/c it was all day but it payed off.....

i also relized something over this past week. it was hard to be with the whole family sence my GG isant here anymore, but it was good too. i relized that no matter how much they frustrate me with all the drinking or how scared i was when i was little, that i wouldent have them any differant than they are. it just wouldent be the shelly family without it all. and no matter how hard it is to get together with the family and not having my great grandma (aka GG) there we will always be family and always be there for eachother.---So my wisdom for this post is...... never stop getting together with your family no mater the condition, because eventualy you will drift away and regret it....

PICTURE TIME!!

this is dan odly enough he is compleatly sobber. hes sweet!


this is terrie and dan, they are sweet to just sit and talk to

yup my dancing family

my GG. this was taken about 3 months before she died

lastly the girlfriend. i dident take this will did....

SUPRISE!!!

So my best friend is going to europ for a whole month!! when i found out i was so excited for her but then i relized that i was jessie less for a month. so she left 2 day before school got out. i was sad because i dident really get to hang out with her before she left(i had exams). but i dicided that it wont be too long and i get a present!!!

so yesterday i went shopping and got this random phone call while i was at the mall. it was from jessies house. i listened to the mesage and it was jessie. i was so confused becasuse she wasnt suposted to be in the contry. i called her back and she said that there was somthing wrong with her pass por. so they were going to drive to chi-town the next day. so i got the bigest suprise ever! i was SO happy because i dident really get to say good-bye. but we hung out all night and then she left for chi-town the next day.

it was good. i will blog later on how i havent had power for 2 day! and more too.....

** when your having a touff time god knows just what to do!**

Summer?

latly i have been spending ALL my time with school work. (mostly math) and i am finding myself stressed out about it all. for instance. i am failing a class that i am retaking and as of right now i have to pass the exam (very hard exam) to pass the class. whelp who knows what will happend. i am puting alot of faith in god to help me out. this time of yea just frightens me and stresses me out. i dont know it just feels like things arnt going too well right now. just waiting for school to be over. it was a hard year. i basicly spend all my time doing school work right now and i am just ready to have a some what stress free summer.

my summer should be interesting. my friends are all leaveing me for the first part of the summer. im kinda a lonner this summer. but i am going to make the most of it and spend alot of time hanging with middle school girls and looking for a job and babysiting 3 times a week. who knows i may find some good in my summer. might work out for me, just as its some what stress free!
<--- leap of faith(knowing gods there)
- words from ME: try your hardest to put as much faith into god as posible. its somthing we all struggle with but i know we can do it. when you think you have no one with you, remeber you have god! hes always there for you, no matter how big of a rut your in.