sinor with a hard scedual??

im not sure if you guys know how high school works but for the most part if your a sinor you get an eassy scedual because every sinor likes to slack off that year. well thats not what happened for me. my scedual consist of me taking 2 math classes chem and some english a child syc class. my only fun class that i have is drawing 2. im a sinor thats not how its suppost to be! im quite upste. but i cant be mad at anyone but myself because you get to choose your scedual. it sucks! but i guess i will live. in the words of my older brother "your just going to have to work your butt off this year". im basicly going to have to relie on god to help me through this year. got alot on my plate and im just going to have to have faith in god. wish me luck!!

FISH!!

so its a whole story so bear with me....

So my grandama takes all of us to the liviona spree every year. (its just like a fair but they call it a spree.) and every year as much as my mom HATES this game we try to win a fish at the fish game. so normaly we just wast a ton of money trying to win a fish but this year we won A TON of them. (So like all my cusions go and they play too so thats what i mean by we won a ton of them) so we have this inch long fair gold fish that (normaly) will die fast. turns out its a trooper. its still alive after at least a month of my little brother(ben) taking care of it. he barley feeds it and its tank was discusting!! (theres no filter) so my grandma found this 30 gallon fish tank for us to have. we took it home and cleaned it out. bought good water for it and everything. now i must remind you that this fish is only like an inch long. So me and my older brother(will) got a bright idea of convincing ben to buy more fish so it was more fun and got more use. all three of us went to the store to get like one or 2 fish for ben to buy.... we came back with 6 fish. ben bough 3 i bought 2 and will bought 1. we took them home to show our parents!! the next day my mom gose to the pet store (not meijer where we went) to get fish food. turns out that we got fish that will attack each when they get big. and the gold fish send off infections to the other fish who wont be attackign any one and will die. which means the little inch long gold fish will be the only one to live.... so now we dont know what to do. will took his fish out so it would live. one fish already died.....

thats my story pics below, our cat likes the fish as you will see.....

catching up

so today i got to hang out with 2 of my best frends. one who i havent seen in over a month and one who i jusst love to death and has been with me through thick and thin. we went to church and i havent been in like forever. it was really really good to go and just listen to a speacker. i'v missed young life. but anyways....

i spent over three hours just chilling with cora and jess and talking to them. catching up on what we all missed and just having fun.

we got to talking and cora brings up the wedding and asks me if i thought it was a sighn from god saying that that was the wrong choice and i should of done work crew. i told her no. then i went on to explin....... i said i dotn think of it as a wrong choice but i think of it as a chance for me to grow with god and relie on him more. everytime i had to make a decition i grew stronger in christ and in life. i became more mature with my decitions. one of my decitions was based on money and finacal things. and to shorten it my parents were willing to give me money that they dident have just so i could go to the wedding. but it was my deciton to say no and have them keep their money. in this decition i grew to trust god that that was the right thing to do and i took it as not many teen girls would stop and say NO i am not taking the money.

so i sat there at beaners and tryed my hardest to explain to them that even thow i dident go to WC i still grew alot this year just in making decitons. So no in case people were wondering i dont look at this as a way of god saying i made the wrong deciton i see it as a way of him testing me and my faith this summer in ways that i needed but just dident know......

its hard for me to think o of how mudh i gave up this summer to go to the wedding and then not go to the wedding. but like i said i am trying to trust in god. wish me luck and please pray.....

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future"

wedding= no go

after alot of stressing out and alot of well crying i came to the conclution that i am not going to the wedding. its a long story that i dont really want to get into right now. but just thought i would let you all know that i am not going.

i am SO not okay with this. i gave up alot this summer to go to the wedding and to not go to it just kills me. pray that i dont stress myself out abotu this too much anymore.

** its hard for me to write somthing today.... as hard as it is for me right now to think this but god has a plan... dont over stress to figure it out.

reaching out...

so i have been hanging out with this sweet girl latly. she i going to be a sophmore. she just went to camp and had the most AMAZING time of her life. we have this thing where we will go to beaners and sit and talk there or or go someplace and talk. i amso happy i get the chance to sit and talk to her. she is amazing and we talk about everything. we sat and talk about the fun times she has and about the serious times she had. i have been luck to get to know her this year. its been good to see her reach out to me and share.

i have this person in my life who likes to set goals for me... big and small. she set this goal for me that i did NOT like at all. she wanted me to start hanging out with this girl who i am not the biggest fan of. she set this goal like crazy amount ago. i only started to attempt this goal this year. well actualy like a month before school endded. see i have his friend who really liked/likes her and he wanted me to be nicer and try to be her friend. so for the sake of us all i was nice. i still dident like her but i was nice becuse my friend had asked me to be nice. (i also had to be nice because i was helping him throught the process.) so then things happended and they became real good friends. they has talked about me and one day he says to me... "she really wants to be our friend alison and would like to hang out with you." so to rape this story up one day me and jess were crazy borde and wanted to hang out with someone. we called my friend his name is bill) and sk him to hang out with us. to go putt-putting. we asked her to come along with us and i was supper nce....

that was long. but i had to get it all in so you understood it all. but i m kinda starting to relize why i dident go to work crew this summer. i think god waned me here to get on equal terms with emily before we went off to collage. now that may not be it but yoi never know. there also may be a reason as to why i am suppost to go to katies wedding. i say this because its been a crazy prosses to get there and someone had been stoping me to go for some reason... if that makes sence.

phil 4:6-7
do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

done...

so i made my decision.... i decided that sence i am going to CO i need money so i should probaly stay home and babysit. well in case you were wondering i am not okay with this decision. i wanted to go to camp SO bad. but i guess theres a reason why i dident. maybe its so amanda can get closer to the girls. maybe i am really needed here. i dont know i just wish i was there.

its been a hard few months. well not really hard just filled with alot of big and hard decision. i guess its gods way of challenging me.

this trip to CO has turned into alot of comfusion. we were supposted to stay a week with janae but then her mom said no. we had to change dates and everything. then we went from a plan to the bus. (which i dont know how i feel abotu yet just know its cheeper) so its just been kinda stress full and i keep questioning the whoel should i of gone to work crew or is this going to be ok... then somthing inside me says that its ok your decision was good. also i talked to katie and she is really happy that im going to be there. so that keeps me going. just hard......

**God put each one of on earth for a differant reason. its our job to live our lives and find out what that reason is...

Huge Opportunity

well its been a great week. always is so much fun till the last day..... i shall go more in depth later.....

so i have this amazing opportunity... i have the chance (again) to go with the wyld life girls to camp. i went last year and it was a really good chance for me to grow with god and get to know the girls before i started wyld life.... but this year i would bee looking to grow with god and be with the girls an see how they are feeling about entering high school. and i want to be there for them at camp so they know that if they have any questions at school they are free to come up to me and ask. i know that my first day of high school i was terrified and my 8th grade Jr. leaders all came up to me and gave me a hug and made sure that i was doing ok. i just want them to feel the same way.

so i have this sweet opportunity but i talked to my mom and she told me that i should probably talk to my aunt because i babysit for her kids every week and last week i didn't really babysit because janae was in town. my mom was like well thats alot of money your missing out on and you have to get to CO in to weeks. so i just am not quite sure what to do. suggestions??

** God has a plan for everything you do and say. for every little things that happens theres a reason why.... i have learned not to stress my self out trying to figure out why it happend.... i am starting to trust god alot more than i used to. everything he dose is good even if you dont see it at first....