slowing down...?

A lot has happened this week even tho its only Wednesday.... well not alot but some...

On Monday we had this banquette for young life. the kids served food then when they were done eating some kids gave there testimonys. i was one of them. Normaly i dont freek out abotu giving mine but this year i did. it was manly because as much as i try not too iv doughted god more than i should have this past year. just with everything thats been going on and the things that have happended its hard not to dought him. but iv been trying REALLY hard to see the good that hes done. but sence all that has happended i felt scattered and wasnt prepared to give it. it could have gone a bit better if you ask me. but then i stayed ad helped clean and didnt get home till 10:30 and still had homework.... YIKES!!

iv been sick for the week i would have to say. iv had a really bad head ach sore throt and just been supper tired. it wasnt till monday that i finaly relized why i got sick. iv been doing too much with no sleep. if you ask me its not a good idea. so this week in trying to slow down and relax. starting with today im not at school because im sleeping all day. iv also been really dizzy and cant figure out why. probaly because im sick.

i was talking to a friend and told him how iv been tired and how i need to learn to say no to people. but i just always feel bad when i do. like after the banquette i didnt have to stay that long to clean. but i couldnt say no. so thats when im working on this week. getting sleep back and not taking more than i can chew...

great advice...

do you have anyone in you life who you know you can just go to and talk to and know that they wont judge you?? well i do. i have more than one actually and if you dont have someone like that i highly suggest that you try and fin someone just to talk to. i know it helps a ton!

So the past week i have been way stressed out and just not getting sleep. i got to go and to a coffee shop and talk to one of the young life leaders. i love just sitting and getting to talk to her. shes just so smart and always knows what to say. even when i sit there and dont want to talk but she knows that deep down i really do she just makes me talk to her. and in the long run it always makes me feel better. she told me that i need to give things up once in a while to sleep and to just relax. i love her to death and dont know what i would do without her.

your life is just a big test. your being graded every second of the day. just be careful what you do and what you say. god see it all and hes a tuff grader.....

break down

so today i was in a good mood. then 2nd hour hits. the most confusing math EVER!! i sit there and am just frustrated!! then we learn new things in other classes... erg! school is just so hard amd frustrating this week. i cant keep my head on stright. i wish i could just fly away and not do anything and have no worrys!

but so today i went to club and thought well maybe this will cheer me up...its dident. but its ok. its just been one of those weeks where its SO hard and frustrating to find the good in things and to not question god on thigs. i really have to start working on that...

pray for me!

oh i wish...

let me first start off by saying No i dont wish i was an Oscar Myer wiener...

tomorrow is Thursday and every Thursday morning i go to campianers and just for one morning out of my week get to wake up early(thats not different) and go and listen to people talk about god and get my day going better than normal. this week i am not going to campianers because i have 2 major test....

i was sitting in the chair watching TV/studying when i had a slight panic attack and realizing i shouldnt be going to campianers in the morning! now earlier in the day my oh so fav teacher was telling me how i need to slow down sleep and study, but dont try to do it all at once. i didnt listen to him which i am finding out i should have... So i start freaking out and finally decide to calm down and think about it all. i came up with still waking up early but not AS early and just go to school (well beaners before) and study for these test. in the meantime i have to call ALL the (2) people that are relieing on me to drive them and tell them i cant go on LAST min. i felt SO bad....

but anyways the point of this story is to say oh i wish i could be supper man and do it all. but i cant and that little panic attack was gods way of showing me that i need to slow down breath and relax. but i just wish i could go to campianers. it may be earlt but i love it. but i guess this is also gods way of tell me i need to study.....

*But I can't do this all on my own
No, I know I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman

your cant do it all on your own you need to relie on god...

you know you spend too much time at school when...

ok so sorry for the lonf title but its shorter than i wanted it to be...

So you know you spend too much time at school with one teacher when.....

1. your friends know right where to find you in the morning and dont bother look at your locker.

2. when someone calls/txts you and ask where you are then stop themselfs and say oh never mind i know.

3. when your mom is giving your techer cookies at the end of the tri because your there SO much.

4. when your teacher has to threaten to kick you out of his room and makes you take a brack from studying and makes you go to sleep.

5. when you see your techer more than your best friends and family. (can you say pathetic??)

6. when you have one teaher tech you more than his class... =/

7. and finaly when you go into his classroom with questions ON A FRIDAY and gives you a limit on how many you can have because i guess fridays im supposted to go home and chill.


thats my life....