after alot of stressing out and alot of well crying i came to the conclution that i am not going to the wedding. its a long story that i dont really want to get into right now. but just thought i would let you all know that i am not going.
i am SO not okay with this. i gave up alot this summer to go to the wedding and to not go to it just kills me. pray that i dont stress myself out abotu this too much anymore.
** its hard for me to write somthing today.... as hard as it is for me right now to think this but god has a plan... dont over stress to figure it out.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
reaching out...
so i have been hanging out with this sweet girl latly. she i going to be a sophmore. she just went to camp and had the most AMAZING time of her life. we have this thing where we will go to beaners and sit and talk there or or go someplace and talk. i amso happy i get the chance to sit and talk to her. she is amazing and we talk about everything. we sat and talk about the fun times she has and about the serious times she had. i have been luck to get to know her this year. its been good to see her reach out to me and share.
i have this person in my life who likes to set goals for me... big and small. she set this goal for me that i did NOT like at all. she wanted me to start hanging out with this girl who i am not the biggest fan of. she set this goal like crazy amount ago. i only started to attempt this goal this year. well actualy like a month before school endded. see i have his friend who really liked/likes her and he wanted me to be nicer and try to be her friend. so for the sake of us all i was nice. i still dident like her but i was nice becuse my friend had asked me to be nice. (i also had to be nice because i was helping him throught the process.) so then things happended and they became real good friends. they has talked about me and one day he says to me... "she really wants to be our friend alison and would like to hang out with you." so to rape this story up one day me and jess were crazy borde and wanted to hang out with someone. we called my friend his name is bill) and sk him to hang out with us. to go putt-putting. we asked her to come along with us and i was supper nce....
that was long. but i had to get it all in so you understood it all. but i m kinda starting to relize why i dident go to work crew this summer. i think god waned me here to get on equal terms with emily before we went off to collage. now that may not be it but yoi never know. there also may be a reason as to why i am suppost to go to katies wedding. i say this because its been a crazy prosses to get there and someone had been stoping me to go for some reason... if that makes sence.
phil 4:6-7
do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
i have this person in my life who likes to set goals for me... big and small. she set this goal for me that i did NOT like at all. she wanted me to start hanging out with this girl who i am not the biggest fan of. she set this goal like crazy amount ago. i only started to attempt this goal this year. well actualy like a month before school endded. see i have his friend who really liked/likes her and he wanted me to be nicer and try to be her friend. so for the sake of us all i was nice. i still dident like her but i was nice becuse my friend had asked me to be nice. (i also had to be nice because i was helping him throught the process.) so then things happended and they became real good friends. they has talked about me and one day he says to me... "she really wants to be our friend alison and would like to hang out with you." so to rape this story up one day me and jess were crazy borde and wanted to hang out with someone. we called my friend his name is bill) and sk him to hang out with us. to go putt-putting. we asked her to come along with us and i was supper nce....
that was long. but i had to get it all in so you understood it all. but i m kinda starting to relize why i dident go to work crew this summer. i think god waned me here to get on equal terms with emily before we went off to collage. now that may not be it but yoi never know. there also may be a reason as to why i am suppost to go to katies wedding. i say this because its been a crazy prosses to get there and someone had been stoping me to go for some reason... if that makes sence.
phil 4:6-7
do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
done...
so i made my decision.... i decided that sence i am going to CO i need money so i should probaly stay home and babysit. well in case you were wondering i am not okay with this decision. i wanted to go to camp SO bad. but i guess theres a reason why i dident. maybe its so amanda can get closer to the girls. maybe i am really needed here. i dont know i just wish i was there.
its been a hard few months. well not really hard just filled with alot of big and hard decision. i guess its gods way of challenging me.
this trip to CO has turned into alot of comfusion. we were supposted to stay a week with janae but then her mom said no. we had to change dates and everything. then we went from a plan to the bus. (which i dont know how i feel abotu yet just know its cheeper) so its just been kinda stress full and i keep questioning the whoel should i of gone to work crew or is this going to be ok... then somthing inside me says that its ok your decision was good. also i talked to katie and she is really happy that im going to be there. so that keeps me going. just hard......
**God put each one of on earth for a differant reason. its our job to live our lives and find out what that reason is...
its been a hard few months. well not really hard just filled with alot of big and hard decision. i guess its gods way of challenging me.
this trip to CO has turned into alot of comfusion. we were supposted to stay a week with janae but then her mom said no. we had to change dates and everything. then we went from a plan to the bus. (which i dont know how i feel abotu yet just know its cheeper) so its just been kinda stress full and i keep questioning the whoel should i of gone to work crew or is this going to be ok... then somthing inside me says that its ok your decision was good. also i talked to katie and she is really happy that im going to be there. so that keeps me going. just hard......
**God put each one of on earth for a differant reason. its our job to live our lives and find out what that reason is...
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Huge Opportunity
well its been a great week. always is so much fun till the last day..... i shall go more in depth later.....
so i have this amazing opportunity... i have the chance (again) to go with the wyld life girls to camp. i went last year and it was a really good chance for me to grow with god and get to know the girls before i started wyld life.... but this year i would bee looking to grow with god and be with the girls an see how they are feeling about entering high school. and i want to be there for them at camp so they know that if they have any questions at school they are free to come up to me and ask. i know that my first day of high school i was terrified and my 8th grade Jr. leaders all came up to me and gave me a hug and made sure that i was doing ok. i just want them to feel the same way.
so i have this sweet opportunity but i talked to my mom and she told me that i should probably talk to my aunt because i babysit for her kids every week and last week i didn't really babysit because janae was in town. my mom was like well thats alot of money your missing out on and you have to get to CO in to weeks. so i just am not quite sure what to do. suggestions??
** God has a plan for everything you do and say. for every little things that happens theres a reason why.... i have learned not to stress my self out trying to figure out why it happend.... i am starting to trust god alot more than i used to. everything he dose is good even if you dont see it at first....
so i have this amazing opportunity... i have the chance (again) to go with the wyld life girls to camp. i went last year and it was a really good chance for me to grow with god and get to know the girls before i started wyld life.... but this year i would bee looking to grow with god and be with the girls an see how they are feeling about entering high school. and i want to be there for them at camp so they know that if they have any questions at school they are free to come up to me and ask. i know that my first day of high school i was terrified and my 8th grade Jr. leaders all came up to me and gave me a hug and made sure that i was doing ok. i just want them to feel the same way.
so i have this sweet opportunity but i talked to my mom and she told me that i should probably talk to my aunt because i babysit for her kids every week and last week i didn't really babysit because janae was in town. my mom was like well thats alot of money your missing out on and you have to get to CO in to weeks. so i just am not quite sure what to do. suggestions??
** God has a plan for everything you do and say. for every little things that happens theres a reason why.... i have learned not to stress my self out trying to figure out why it happend.... i am starting to trust god alot more than i used to. everything he dose is good even if you dont see it at first....
Saturday, July 12, 2008
my life is always better when my best friend is with me.... for those few days i am on the happyest place in the world.... then she leave....
janae is in town and i have maybe gotten 20 hours of sleep this whole week. maybe. she went to TWL this weekend and to her grnadmas house. she comes back monday and leaves tusday afternoon. i love that girland somtimes i just dont know how i function with her being gone all the time....
i shall put up pics later.....
janae is in town and i have maybe gotten 20 hours of sleep this whole week. maybe. she went to TWL this weekend and to her grnadmas house. she comes back monday and leaves tusday afternoon. i love that girland somtimes i just dont know how i function with her being gone all the time....
i shall put up pics later.....
Sunday, July 6, 2008
NEWS!!!
Got a phone call from a friend and well she is on work crew and saw a clip at one of the clubs... and well she said that she finlay knew why she was there, and that just touched my heart....
she kept telling me "i cant explain how i feel i just know why i am here now" and i told he i know how you feel. thats when i told her that thats how i felt when i made my decision this summer go to the wedding and not work crew. i just couldent explain it. and i am still struggleing with the decision i made. i am still wondering if i should of gone to work crew. everyone said to go but i went the other way. i know that the decision i made was for a reason. but its hard to sit back and just listen to everyone say how sweet there experiance was without me regretting my decision. but today i came across this verce. (it was on one of my good friends facebook in the quotes section) its So do not fear, for I am with you- Isaiah 41:10 - this just helps me when i think of the decision i made. i just hope its the right one, sence i cant go back now.....
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you
= D
she kept telling me "i cant explain how i feel i just know why i am here now" and i told he i know how you feel. thats when i told her that thats how i felt when i made my decision this summer go to the wedding and not work crew. i just couldent explain it. and i am still struggleing with the decision i made. i am still wondering if i should of gone to work crew. everyone said to go but i went the other way. i know that the decision i made was for a reason. but its hard to sit back and just listen to everyone say how sweet there experiance was without me regretting my decision. but today i came across this verce. (it was on one of my good friends facebook in the quotes section) its So do not fear, for I am with you- Isaiah 41:10 - this just helps me when i think of the decision i made. i just hope its the right one, sence i cant go back now.....
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you
= D
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Beaners & Friendships
So latly i have been spending alot of time with a sweet girl named natalee. we shar this obsession of beaners coffee. mason just resently put one in and i am going to go bankrupted! but i love it SO much. but this time that i have has been more of me getting to know natalee. we have known each other but not really know each other. i have been prety close with her sister katie. and i have become close with natalee. we are both on the water polo team. its me natalee and our friend chloe who basicly hate everyone else on the team. yup i know very functinal. but anyways thats when i started to become close to her. This summer we have a whole list of things to do together. they constist of....
1. go to beaners (we have checked this one many times)
2. go putt-putting
3. A movie
4. go to D.Q.
So far we have done well beaners. but we tend to get it at like 7:00 at night. then were up till like 4:00. crazy. well last night we went to beaners then back to her house to make Rice Krispy Treats for katie. (they were for her birthday even thow it was a month ago) then proceeded to stay up a long time. i dident leave till 1:00.
it was fun. i love hanging out with her. it makes me happy to just be able to talk to her. its a good start to a good friendship......
**Keep those who are close to you as long as you can. its the best way to keep good friends ; )
Ps.... in case you were wondering i am one of those people who refuses to call it BIGGBY
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