All the decisions to make!

So i am a junior in high school and almost a sinor. which in my case mean i have dicided on collage stuff and what i want to do with my life. making decisions isant the easyest thing for me in life. i am more of a go with the flow kind of gal...

So i went up to GVSU (Grand Valley State University) with my family on saterday to see my older brother and atke him out to lunch/dinner. on the way up there i dicided it may be a good time to talk to my parents about collage stuff. So i brought it up. the first thingi said to them was i wanted to explore and get out. i think they took it as a i just want away from my family. which is not true. i just dont want to be the kind of person who is stuck in the same place forever. and i dont want to regret not experiancing all of that. so i talk to them about it and they want me to go to LCC first. or at lleast LCC. i told them i kinda wanted to go to a christan collage. i feel like if i would go into young life it may be better for me to go to s christan collage. but i just dontknow. its a tuff decision. i dont know how people do it. i guess i will probaly end up going to LCC. or where ever god wants me to go. i also found this collage in lansing that is a christan collage but i dont know. i will keep looking.

it was wired i was looking at collages in MI (actualy i was looking at christan collages) and the 1st one i click on was in lansing. and so i feel like that may be a sign as yo what HE wants me to do. but i am still figuring it all out. and its just a long process. i have another year. its just ALL so frustrating somtimes...

this verce dosent really go with what i talked about but i liked it!

1 Corinthians 10:12
So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall!

Ps. Chris i hope you find it in your heart to give me your those shorts for my B-day! i would looove it! you would be ONE of my fav leaders! :)

I <3 JESUS!

So i would have to say that monday nights sre my favorite nights of the week! you may think eww mondays suck. well i think YES MONDAYS!! as much as i hate getting up in the morning and going to school on a monday i still love them. manly because of Wyld life and Young life.

WYLD LIFE!!

i love being a Jr. leader! this hole year i have helped lead middle school kids to christ. its amazing to see how they grow to god just for once a week. i love getting connected to them and seeing them light up when ever they see me. its one of the best feelings in the world! and i am SO happy i get to experiance it. We have dinner at my house every week before we go off to wyld life. And we recently just started a little bible study before we eat. it helps to just read the bible before to keep in mind the reason we are doing this. its just amazing. and i love it. its helps me get to know incoming freshmen and it helps me grow stronger in my own faith. which i always good.

me and another leader get the privlige to shar our testimony with the middle school kids. for me at times i feel like YES i love giving my testimony and then there are the times when i am like oh i have to give my testimony to middle schoolers... its not the easyest thing to do, espesaly in front of middle schoolers. it will be a chalenge for me, and i like a good challenge!

YOUNG LIFE!!

EVERY week i go to YL. its the best time ever. seeing people you love and singing songs as off key as posible. its amazing. words just cant discibe how much i love it. best time ever and i think everyone should go. young life is just one of those things that i cant discribe with out it sounding like "oh i dont want to go". So i always just say you have to go to really understand the joy of it. i just LOOOOVE young life. thats all i can say...

MY LIFE-

So right now in my life i am experiancing god in a hole another way. its a good way. i am getting closer to him and in need of somthing stronger. My church is doing baptisms this sunday and i have never been baptised. my parents wanted it to be our choice. i really want to do it. i was talkiing to my friend janae and she was like totaly do it, it will be amazing! but then she says (she lives in CO.) if you can, can you wait till i am in MI to do it because i would really want to be there when it happends. which i was like totaly. and it was funny she said that because i have fussing with the idea for a while and havent wanted to do it because she is in CO and i want her there with me! its just a hard thing for me to dicide. SO if you have any sugestions i am open to them! feel free to pass on your knowlege.

So thats where i am in mylife right now. some days its more complicated than others. but for the most part i am happy with it!

Luke 18:27
Jesus replied, "What is impossible with men is possible with God."

Work Crew!

So i went on work crew this last weekend. its a weekend to serve the kids and to see god work in your life in many differant ways....

i saw god SO many ways this weekend. let me first start off with on the way up there we got into an acident(sp?) it wasent with anyone other than black ice but it was crazy. it was the kind of acident where it really opens your eyes. i wont go too much into the prosses of it. but it did show me how god was there and he was whatching over us. all weekend long it kept circling in my head how if one little thing was differant then we could of gotten hurt. i also kept thinking that if god wasent there then who knows what could of happend. it opened my eyes to a hole new level. when the people in the other cars came running to see us and to make sure we are ok it made me realize how much everyone loves me and everyone in that car. i kid around with the other leaders alot and i know how much i love them but when they came running i love them more at that point of time more than i have loved the in my life! it was just crazy for me to see how god was right there with us teaching us a lesson in a way that we dont know yet...

Work crew was AMAZING! i just loved it. at times i got really frustrated with things but i got over it because it wasent my weekend and i knew that. we get stuck in this lowsy room, that the beds make nosie everytime you move and as soon as i saw it i was like no way! but then i got to thinking again this isant my week, i dont need a bed to sleep on. as long as the campers have a bed then i am fine. So i dicided i was going to be positive about it. and it turned my hole weekend around. it made the other girls who dident like the room in a bit of a better mood because i was positive about the hole thing. When i was serving/ bussing table i woukd get frustarted or not want to do it any more because it was hard. but then i would remeber that jesus loves me SO much that he wants me to be here and show everyone that i am happy and can serve with a smile. i saw God so much this weekend its crazy,but i loved it to death!

i learned this weekend to have a better attitud about things. but a more positive spin of things. So as the days go on i am going to try my hardest to be more positive about things that i wouldent normaly have a positive attitude about. because i went on work crew i found this out and i am SO glade i did. God loves me and he for sure loves you!

Psalm 105:1
Give thanks to the LORD, call on his name; make known among the nations what he has done.