done...

so i made my decision.... i decided that sence i am going to CO i need money so i should probaly stay home and babysit. well in case you were wondering i am not okay with this decision. i wanted to go to camp SO bad. but i guess theres a reason why i dident. maybe its so amanda can get closer to the girls. maybe i am really needed here. i dont know i just wish i was there.

its been a hard few months. well not really hard just filled with alot of big and hard decision. i guess its gods way of challenging me.

this trip to CO has turned into alot of comfusion. we were supposted to stay a week with janae but then her mom said no. we had to change dates and everything. then we went from a plan to the bus. (which i dont know how i feel abotu yet just know its cheeper) so its just been kinda stress full and i keep questioning the whoel should i of gone to work crew or is this going to be ok... then somthing inside me says that its ok your decision was good. also i talked to katie and she is really happy that im going to be there. so that keeps me going. just hard......

**God put each one of on earth for a differant reason. its our job to live our lives and find out what that reason is...