people frustrate me

now as you have seen i have made my desicion. which i s good. and i am ok with that decition. have to be i already told the camp. but when people ask me or i go to tell them(certain people) there not as suppoted of my decition as i would like them to be. i have had people tell me "oh" then just stop talking. i have had people be like what ever its your decition. and then go and try to be supported. and then i have the people who have always been behind me in what ever i chose. i am thankful for those people because the other people just are making me mad! it was a hard enough decition for me to make in the first place, and it dosent make it any eassyer for me to go off and tell someone and them be upset with my decition even thow it dosent effect them. i just dont know what people think. i guess i am ok with my decition but its hard when i know what people are thinking and arnt fully with me on it. i dont know about you but it is frustrating.

i do have to say again how much i love the people who i know there opinon on it but still dont give me an ancwer when i tell them that makes me mad. it really helps being in this situation. thanks a million!

All i think is everything happends for a reason. and that makes it a bit eassyer. god works in wired ways and i love it! (most of the time) = ]

Final Decision

ok decision making is done.

i made my decision with lots and LOTS of help from my good good friend mere! couldent of dont it with out her.

i have decided to not go on work crew this summer. i will go next summer but not this summer. i know people are probaly thinking "why would you go to a wedding over work crew". well let me tell ya, she is like my sister and i dont want to miss it. also i prayed and read my bible and talk to people. and in the end mere told me that i know that i am leaning more towards one way and i just need to go with that no matter what other say. so i did. and i really do feel like i wouldent of made this decition if god dident want me to go to the wedding. Also he made me make this decision for a reason. it helped me relie more on god and myself rather than other people. so in th end i feel like this is where god wants me to be, and thats where i am.

if you want to know more than what i have said just call me up and talk to me.....

Psalms 20:7
Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.

desiontions & Psalm 6

well i dont know what i said in my last blog but if i didnt tell you that james was going to try and find a camp that dosnt interfer with katies weding. well he looked and couldent find any openings for me. so that means i am faced with the decition again. which is alright i guess. i had a feeling that this would happen, but io was just hopeing it it wouldent. so i am giving my self till monday to make a desition and i shall let you all know what a come to. wish me luck and i am always open to advice!!

so i just got done reading Psalm 6 and it made me think. i love to read psalms because they are Davids prayers to god. but as i read through this verce it made me relize that even when you are mad at god or dont understand what his plan for you is, its ok to question him. now if you go and read psalms 6 you may take it differantly but thats what i found.

Psalms 6.....

what a week

so just for an update i havent made a decition about this summer. i am going to go insane! i am about ready to say i am not going to either of them and just get a full time job this summer! i just dont know what to do! On top of all that i poped another rib out of place. and sence i only have a week left of polo i am just going to keep it like that and play until season is over. what ever.....

on a light note i got a new car. my dad got a new car and my older brother had a nice car already and my mom dident want a car so he gave me his old car. its a green pontiac bonivil(sp?). its ok. i miss my old car but i will get over it. i named it lilyan bonnie. its old name was bonnie and my dad liked that name so i had to keep it. i know they dont go together but what ever.

some verces i have been focusing on:

May the LORD answer you when you are in distress- Psalms 20:1

now this next one i understand but dont see how its working for me...

May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed.- Psalms 20:4